Kai

This is actually a recent discovery for me.. but I actually love doing housework.. lmaooo whether it's buying dishes, a coat rack, doing laundry for my gf and I, and grocery shopping for our meals for the week.. it actually brings me so much happiness hahahah... and it's like a weird satisfaction of seeing my gf come home from work so tired.. and her energy being lifted because of the dinner I prepped... 🥺 so in that case... I am PROUD TO BE A STAY AT HOME BF hhehe 😝 No but seriously, i want her to come home to a clean house, with clothes clean, table top full from all the food and my face card being lethal so not only is her taste buds pleased but also HER EYES 👀💕 that's why I'm glad I get to use a one stop shop kinda cream from @Dr.Jart+ North America ... cuz this color correction treatment be correcting all my unevenness and giving me a glowy skin at the same time 😮‍💨 So to all the ppl naysaying me as a stay at home bf... at least my skin do be glowing ✨HAHAHAHH Shop now @sephora #Drjart #DrJartPartner #Cicapair #CCT

Ahhh im guilty… cuz i am the biggest CULPRIT of glossing over the cleanser step.. no seriously in the past I'd just use any cleanser from Walgreens and thought that it was okay since its all getting washed off.. but guys.. WAS I SO WRONG 😭😭.. IT'S BECAUSE it’s the 1ST step that it sets the stage for your skin.. so instead of using cleansers that DRY the hell out of my skin and then hoping my serums would save me.. I’ve just been using cleansers that are HYDRATION FORWARD like @yepoda cleansing duo line.. so that the rest of my routine could build off of that ✨✨😅 Srsly tho.. their packaging is also what’s getting me hahah … listen there’s just something about cute ass packaging ✨and coloring of the products and how they just FEEL in your hands waving it around 😂😂 Hehe try it out y'all and lmk what yall think too.. I hope I’m not the only waving it around at home like a little menace 😂😈 @Yepoda #yepoda #kbeauty #skincareroutine #koreanskincare #yepodapartner

This was the MOST elegant yet challenging I’ve ever done😂 no but seriously I just watched the Ballerina movie and it like totally inspired me to try it.. cuz there’s just this beautiful duality of ballerinas that make them so beautiful yet fierce.. and I WANTED TO HAVE THAT AURA hahahah I will say tho I was definitely TOO SHY to try this by myself and you guys know I’m in my adventurous era to help me navigate through this transition period after quitting my nursing job.. so I think this was the perfect thing to try out to see if I like it 🩰🥹 Honestly tho.. watching the boys struggle was probably the funniest part too lmaoooo but Omg Daesung was actually killing it.. I was shocked 🫢😂 meanwhile me, Jerry, and Dylan were like the blind leading the blind HAHAHA So if you guys are looking for a new hobby or endeavor to try out and you were inspired by our dusty ballet moves✨🙌🩰, this might be a beautiful idea to try out too Huge thank you to @Everyday Ballet and the instructors for instructing us so carefully yet lightheartedly too. it made us feel so safe and confident 💝💝 hehe

A lot of times when I’m down I usually look to spending money (retail therapy), eating ungodly amounts of food, or validation from people I DO NOT NEED TO BE GETTING IT FROM.. and I sort of fall into a deeper pit of emptiness.. but as I get older and I start prioritizing the things in life that aren’t so I guess like.. fleeting.. I’m learning that these things like spending time with my parents more, actually appreciating my friends, taking care of my body = mental health.. that I’m a lot more content and stably.. happy if that makes sense.. it’s not so much more of bursts of dopamine rushes.. but rather taking the time to invest in long term joy💕 And so if that means reconnecting with my old friend and catching back up with him.. then it’s a seed I want to plant because I wanna stop taking the family and friends in my life for granted 💕 And I had an amazing time with the old bro 🙌🙌

Getting over my fears of social anxiety to look my best @imnotedweird0 Products: Second skin cushion @hince_official Contour & highlight duo pencil @outofofficecollections Backstage face and body perfector concealer @diorbeauty

More than anything.. this is a pivotal moment for me as a son.. not simply because I flew my parents on business class.. that is only the SYMPTOM of the bigger core.. and that is my choice to step up and give back even a fraction of what my parents sacrificed for me.. I never once thought when I was in elementary school crying and seeing my dad wake up at 4am to deliver hot donuts to 7/11s and my mom coming home with blisters from standing 12 hour shifts.. that’d I’d be blessed and lucky enough to now be in a spot where I can gift my parents these things financially.. This is a testament that none of this is mine. None of this “success” belongs to me.. I am only a product of what God has crafted and what my parents had given me❤️ I hope I never lose my roots and pray that God can keep allowing me to pour my heart out in these videos so I can have the OPPORTUNITY to treasure my parents the way I did this past weekend on the plane 💕 He > I Love, Kai Products: SOS spray @Tower 28 Beauty Pore + dark spot brightening face mask @celimax.global @celimax US Store

Sometimes you just gotta bend over back to convince somebody.. 😂😂 no but seriously noah works hard in the military and he’s constantly out in the sun doing his duties.. but the fact is this man does NOT wear sunscreen whiles working 😭 So today my goal is to finally convince him that using sunscreen can give a glow WHILST protecting the skin✨✨ but ofc I had to catch his attention first.. so I doused the whole bottle pretty much on my skin.. and stil then my @mixsoon bean sunscreen still blended evenly and without a white cast 🫣✨ Let’s just hope he was even impressed by it 🙏🙏 #koreanskincare #beansunscreen #mixsoonpartner #mixsoon #amazon

making sure the boys feel safe ❤️ @Daesung(대성)

The truth is.. my family is NOT perfect.. but you know who is.. God.. and I know he’s working through my dad and my sister.. even though they got long ways to go.. I can see God is slowly chipping away at my dads heart but also leaning my sister in closer to him 🥹 and it’s so amazing to see as a brother who grew up seeing them fight for so long that he started blaming the issues on to himself..🥺 But I’m a believer in good faith and that our family will heal soon. And it will be the greatest testament to myself that nothing in this world is perfect.. but love will prevail :) So if you come from not a so perfect family.. know that you’re not alone ❤️ Products: Hydrating cleanser @CeraVe SOS spray @Tower 28 official Noni ampoule @celimax.global Dual barrier cream @celimax US Store

I swear to you guys.. I’m on healing and rebuilding arcccc😎😎 I’m sick of wasting my summer being lazy, drinking alcohol, going out, and doing things that make me feel weak.. and I know the boys have been loving the little adventures I’ve been taking them on through nyc.. so I was like hey.. let’s be active, AND do something that keeps taking us out of our comfort zone… SO AERIAL YOGA WAS PERFECT 🤣 and I love wearing athletic sets like from abercrombie and even the tights from Target so I don’t get a rug burn from the straps😂😂 But in the end, even tho we were goofy @omfactory and the instructor was so so thorough and patient with us.. so I was honestly so greatful 🥹🥰 So.. idk what you’re guys’ plans are for the summer, but try something new, be curious, and venture into the unknown, and do it with friends, because you’re never too old or too young to make new memories 💕 Products: Navy track shorts and navy polished tee @abercrombie Navy tights @target

I’ve always been a “follow the rules” kinda person.. partially because I’m scared of what’s beyond the boundaries, but also because it gives me peace following a straight path.. and I’ve lived like this from the beginning.. from following every direction in elementary to high school, to living and dying by my parents words.. I followed a pattern where I thought would give me happiness.. But even then.. the logical and practical life did not give me the satisfaction I was looking for.. so I gave it another shot.. but this time completely opposite.. I chased after the Disney, romantic and fantastical story line of following my heart, listening to my gut and sacrificing the very thing that was disturbing my peace.. which was my nursing career.. and even at the end of that rainbow was an empty treasure chest.. The world tells you to be smart and logical and the other half tells you to listen to your heart.. but I did BOTH so why am I still missing something.. I’m beginning to realize that purpose is a funny thing.. I gave up a meaning that I chased my entire life for and now I’m working as a full time creator.. but still to this day.. I feel like I have to fill a void.. I “should” be happy.. but I feel guilt and that imposter syndrome is becoming realer than ever.. but the thing is.. I am in this position and I CANNOT let myself take this for granted.. because at the end of the day I still fought to be here and I still got something to prove.. to not just myself but to my parents who are still living in that same small apartment in Missouri.. and my sister who’s juggling her new family.. I gotta stand because I just have too much to lose if back down 💝

I just wanted to say thank you.. to my girlfriend, to my friends, and to YOU guys.. because I simply cannot take credit for any of this.. I didn’t get here on my own.. if my friends never supported me or even accepted for the way I am.. even with all of my quirks, cringey and embarrassing moments and videos.. to YOU guys even caring to watch any of the videos I create.. like I simply have no room to claim credit for this platform.. the same way God gave me this.. he can take it right back… And through this Milestone I really came to realize that.. community is EVERYTHING.. chasing your dreams, unlocking your goals yea they’re all amazing.. but what’s the point if you’re at the top and you got no one to be with you.. so.. I don’t care if I’m at the top or at the bottom.. if I can just be with the ppl that love me for who I am. As broken as I am.. then I think I achieved my dream.. and anything beyond that is a bonus 💕💝 So thank you from the bottom of my heart💝 we’ll do this life together :)

no matter the situation.. I WILL ALWAYS PICK THE MOST GENTLE product over the MOST effective product.. yes I like fast results but from my experience.. fast results come and fast results exit.. FAST.. and typically these kind of products tend to be way too aggressive or strong for my skin and eventually break me out 🥲 So these days I’ve been opting for gentle and natural and clean products like @Cell Fusion C that treat my skin with loving tender care hehe🥰 no but seriously no irritation, no itching, no bumps just good ole sun protection and a little glow to go with it ✨✨ And as always it’s never about perfect but rather healthy skin💕💝💕💝💕💝💝✨🙌🌙🌙 #cellfusioncpartner #sunscreen #lasersunscreen #acneproneskin

One of my greatest fears is that when I’m with my parents walking or with a partner that we get provoked by some stranger.. and I can’t do anything but stand or run away.. to be idly standing there unable to protect my people and just let a perpetrator have his way with me.. just kills me.. the thought of this makes my stomach turn.. And ever since that day my parents and I got pushed on the subway and I froze.. I pledged to myself that I wasn’t gonna just complain about my fear anymore.. NOT I WANT.. but I PLAN on becoming capable, protective, and strong so I can do everything in my power to keep the ones I love safe and for them to feel SAFE with me.. And if that means exploring Brazilian jiu jitsu and working out to build my body then I will do it gladly and proudly. So I’m so so so so greatful the gym I’ve been training at @clockworkbjj has been so flexible and generous enough for me to come and film our little private session. Instructor Ray is so patient and thorough and NEVER makes you feel pressured to learn faster.. but rather lets you go at your own pace.. so I love that about him and this gym❤️ Truly a gem here in nyc couldn’t have asked for it better Products: Soybean milk serum @mixsoon Cicaterol serum @beplain.shop Calming down cream @Cell Fusion C 5in lined shorts @Fabletics Men Compression short sleeve shirt @Under Armour US

This is my 1st step in overcoming this shame of standing for something I believe with all of my heart.. It’s a little funny and ironic that this faith I dearly hold on to is the most GUARDED thing in my heart.. When it’s a gift from God that he wanted me to share.. But its okay too.. And i’ll give myself grace because I am broken.. I so imperfect, so flawed, so ugly on the inside, selfish, prideful.. But the fact is.. God loves me right now as this mess and he’ll continue to love me as I get messier too..  And i still remember a quote that old roommate told me long ago.. And it’s that Jesus will die on that cross 1 million more times if he needed to.. JUST for me.. Even if I was the last person remaining on this earth.. And that kind of LOVE from a God that is perfect to someone like me.. Shook and shattered my heart… So i want to share that amazing love.. And i don’t want to let this platform trick me into believing that this is only for my gratification… it was NEVER mine to begin with.. It was a gift from God along with everything I have.. So i don’t want to take it for granted.. EVER.. This is my 1st step.. A baby step.. And it’ll be messy but I’ll choose to stand for something.. Because if I don’t I’ll fall for anything.. And I choose Jesus ❤️

A new chapter

You guys know me.. I’ve been battling with loneliness and the feeling of being empty for the past month or 2 now.. and I’m really trying to do it the healthy way.. God knows the mistakes I made when I was younger trying to fill this hole with the wrong crowd, the wrong habits and it ultimately made me feel even more alone..

So NOW IM IN MY HEALING ERA… and using this time to find my worth and peace in a better place.. a source where I know im loved, forgiven, and taken care of.. and that’s through Christ.. and I’m not perfect either.. I’m working on my relationship with him but I’ll stand with him because I know any othe vices will leave me feeling more empty..

So pray for me guys that I find the right community and the right friends too.. 🥹🥹✨❤️

And yes I know I’m obsessed with Abercrombie.. hehe I’m trying to work with them and get on their radar 😆🫣🤫🤫🤫

Products:
The calm down cream @Cell Fusion C @cellfusioncofficial
Knitted polo in cream @abercrombie
Sand linen trousers @Suitsupply

The one thing I love doing is seeing every man in my family or friends’ reaction when I bring them to somewhere like @sephora It’s typically a store they’ve never went to or would never shop at by themselves so seeing how shy or awkward or sometimes uncomfortable is def something special 🤭🤣 no but really Younghoon was so stiff at the store at first but once we started stacking up the skincare he was lighting up.. and that was the most wholesome thing to see 🥹🥹 It’s moments like this self care and beauty go beyond just me.. and actually brings me closer to my family or my friends.. and I stand by this: that I won’t let vanity be defined with self consumption but rather a means to build others up together with me ❤️ Products: Cream skin milky toner @laneige_us Brightening serum @byoma CICA face mask SPF 50 sunscreen

My dad and I have this funny relationship where our love is communicated through silence.. but you know me. I’m such a deeply emotional person over a logical person that for the longest time I took silence as a “neglect” or that “he doesn’t love me” so it took a very long time to adjust to his love style.. but in the cross fire of this kind of relationship means that we don’t really get to have conversations or even just casual talk.. so I think that’s why it became awkward for me to be with him and also to make eye contact.. cuz WE JUST DONT TALK TO each other 😂😂 But I’m older now I’m realizing that just because his love style is like this doesn’t mean I should be the same.. especially when I feel and love so deeply 🥹 so here’s my small baby step attempts to break this generational curse that runs in the LEE family.. and adding some warmth back intro my relationship with him❤️❤️ You can do it. You can change the trajectory of your family, relationships, friendships.. it all starts with just trying. Initiation 💕🙌 Products: Hydrating cleanser @CeraVe The vita-A retinol shot @celimax.global Celimax dual barrier cream @celimax US Store

Growing up as someone who’s very insecure with himself, shy, and self-conscious—ALL of the ANXIOUS TRAITS that I dread 😂—it was very hard for me to break out of my shell and be the ideal and cool “version” of myself. I had all these expectations for me to have a strong friend circle in college, to have a best friend throughout those times… but for some reason, I let my fears and insecurities stop me from putting myself out there. And it didn’t help when my acne became the WORST it’s ever been… and it really forced me to trap myself in my dorm. This spiraled me into one of my toughest times of loneliness and depression. I hated myself. I hated the way I let my fears keep me in. I hated the way my face looked with all the scars and craters from acne. I hated how socially awkward I was, and I hated how I had no community… But I knew something had to change… because if I wasn’t gonna take responsibility for my situation, nobody else would… And so I moved to New York City—the one city that would eventually FORCE me to interact, exit my bubble, make mistakes, get humbled, but at the same time MEET some of the most amazing people, enjoy never-once-imagined experiences, and just GROW into the man I’ve always wanted to… And fast forward 3 years from that moment… I’ve garnered some of the healthiest and strongest brotherhood with my best friend, built a strong circle of guys, and even overcame a fear I never thought I could… public speaking ✨💕💝🙌 So I guess the moral is… take that leap, move to that dream city, talk to that stranger, chase that career—whatever it is you want to make happen… YOU ARE SO CAPABLE AND STRONG beyond your imagination. Because the life you want is just right after that first baby step. You got this and I believe in you 💝 Love, Kai