on monday june 16th i got the worst possible phone call you could ever receive. a phone call my family and i have all feared the possibility of becoming a reality for the last 15 years now. i’m so heartbroken and devastated to say my sweet and loving brother Andreas has passed away to a drug overdose, after almost 2 years clean.😔🩶 i really don’t have the words right now and i’m shaking while writing this, but all i could say is i love him so very much and i’m going to miss him every single day of my life. my heart hurts knowing the severity of his internal pain and sadness that he was experiencing daily. on the outside you could never tell, he was fun, funny, loving, caring, handsome, had the biggest heart you could ever imagine, and helped everyone else around him. but i wish so badly he gave that love and worthiness to himself. i wish so badly he could see himself the same way we all saw him. unfortunately, he battled with this disease for 15 long years and was a huge part of my childhood and pain, but i felt like i could never really open up or share this part of my family’s life. i never saw him as an addict or judged him for his flaws and struggles, but rather saw him as a loving, soft, sensitive, strong, and lost soul who always wanted more for himself. he didn’t want to be in this cycle of pain. he didn’t want to suffer, but he also didn’t know how to carry on another 24 hours of his current mind and reality. mental health and addiction takes over your entire being. it controls your every waking thoughts, and i won’t stay silent on these issues anymore. in fact, this has given me more purpose and drive to make a positive impact and change and carry out his story and legacy. the only peace i’ve been able to find this week, has been reading some of his journal entries and seeing the severity of the pain he was going through. the self depreciating thoughts and fears he struggled with that took over his body. i now know he is at peace and no longer suffering. i promise to always make you proud. until i see you again🪽rest easy my sweet brother, i love you so much and hope you know just how loved you are. you will always be my hero.❤️ #addiction #MentalHealth #recovery
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